Не очень понятно какой ты помощи в своей беде ждёшь.
Many that live deserve death. And some that die deserve life. Can you give it to them? Then do not be too eager to deal out death in judgement. For even the very wise cannot see all ends.
А может вскрылся от безысходности и бренности бытия?
And I heard a voice in the midst of the four beasts. And I looked and behold, a pale horse, and it's name it said on him was Death, and Hell followed with him.